Authenticity

Surrender, the key to authentic recovery, I believe, is the most difficult idea for addicts to grasp.  Mainly because it is not about them…and that was/is my biggest deal…something not about me…the almighty me…I want it…when…where…how…I want it!

Today’s post is an excerpt from several days of incoherent thoughts on the subject…I hope you can make heads or tails of it…

Every night in the darkness, fear breeds panic, I look for light, only to find more darkness, as the darkness grows, the air becomes damp, pungent with the aroma of death and despair…the death of a soul destined to be a warrior, the despair of a life designed for receiving and dispensing HOPE!

In the darkness, the quietness screams, fear conquers, life slips further and further down…farther and farther from its destiny…little by little the breath of life is squeezed out…until…finally….RELEASE!!!

In that moment of surrender, light pierces and darkness evaporates.  Panic and despair are extinguished.  Hope’s light enters to every crevice and the soul breaths in deeply.  Destiny has returned to claim what is His.

The screaming is replaced with quiet, the aroma, sweet honeysuckle, confirms, life is here.  The light warms the soul; the springs of water quench the insatiable thirst of a soul in the depths.  Love conquers the heart of a man, and the name of warrior is given.

He rises, fierce and brave to surrender once again.  Surrendering to hope, light, life, victory, and destiny…to the person of life…authentic life…from the source…the poser is dead!

“The fierceness of a man’s heart is determined by the resolve of his surrender.”

                                                                                                                                Logan Anderson, May 2007